this is everyday of my life, I don't understand why i'm so upset right now. I don't even know why I put myself through the torture of checking your blog. you kill me inside and you know it. you don't care. you never have cared, and never will. you're just as heartless as she is, and I think if it came down to her beating me up, or trying to hurt me? you'd let her. you lie and tell me all the time you wouldn't let anything happen to me, but I think you would. you don't even care if I have a way to school or not. yesterday you COMPLETELY ignored me and then talked s*** behind my back. really? super mature. I don't care anymore. have your fun, go ahead little stupid boy. and when she ditches you, and you really need somebody? don't come crying to me. I won't be here. i've had it with you and your silly little games, your straight out lies, and giving me "love" and taking it away. I don't want you anymore. I don't want you ever again. if you're reading this, i'm not kidding. i'm serious. that's why I haven't texted you, why I haven't called, why i'm ignoring you, and you don't even give a rat's a**. that's real cute. and I guess all you'll have to say about it is, "now that's unfortunate, isn't it?" well, I guess it is. and it'll be REALLY unfortunate when you have no friends and need me; I won't be there. i'm not yours and HER welcome mat. I don't want her friendship, because it isn't true. I have nothing against her, except the fact she has you. and that's all she had/has against me, is that I had you once. this blog post is not to blast her. it's to blast you. she never did anything to me, nor I to her.
since you know who this is about girl (I won't disclose names), if you're reading, here's my apology to you. I know I just said some pretty heavy things up there, and i'm sorry. i'm just really mad. you probably don't care, and really want to kill me right now, and that's alright. that's just fine. that's been your state for a few months, almost a year now. I just want to put this stupid s*** to rest with you and him both. I don't hate you. not at all. I won't lie, i'm not your biggest fan, and I don't think you're exactly mine, either. it really isn't necessary to hate someone over a guy. especially when you could be really good friends with that person, and were for a time. I don't exactly think you were ever really my friend, I think you just put up with me for him. and that's okay. I understand your motive. i'm truly over him now, and I don't want to be with him anymore. so, you can stop worrying about that.
you know what? I don't think there is really anything I can say to make you not mad. I really don't know what to say to you at all. sorry.
well, that's all I have to rant about, for anyone who "reads my blog". soooooo...have a tiggerific tuesday bloggers.
much love.
here's my halloween costume. I was snooki from jersey shore. not that you can tell.
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